Got past-life sexual trauma? If so, It’s more likely than you think, and yes, you can learn how to heal past life sexual trauma.
I was 23 when I first uncovered my past-life sexual trauma. For years I had a deep fear of sex and intimacy and I didn’t understand why. I kept men at a distance. Anything more than a platonic friendship terrified me. I avoided sexual media of any kind. Just hearing people talk about sex made me feel nauseted. When a close male friend confessed his love for me, I freaked out and cut him out of my life. That sparked my interest to look deeper into my fears. Long story short, it turned out I had sexual trauma from a past life in which I’d been a sex slave.
The good news is I’m not crazy, and neither are you. Even though internet resources about past life sexual trauma remain limited, it’s safer than ever to seek support around healing it.
(Case in point: When began private coaching with Zeva in May 2020, I felt like my prayers had finally been answered. Here was someone who spoke my language and had tools to help me process the experiences I’d held inside for years. But that’s another story entirely.)
In this blog post, I’ll be sharing how to heal past-life sexual trauma. Specifically, I’ll delve into 5 key steps I uncovered along my healing journey that were pivotal in releasing my own trauma. Ready to dive in? Let’s go!
1. Acknowledge you have past life trauma.
The first step to moving forward from your past life trauma is acknowledging that you do, in fact, have trauma. And that your past life trauma is valid. The sooner you can do so, the better, as this will make you more willing to heal the past life trauma inside your body.
On my own journey, I spent months researching the validity of past life regressions just to convince myself that what I was experiencing was real. Books such as Many Lives, Many Masters, by Dr. Brian Weiss were immensely supportive. These books helped me realize that past life trauma was real and valid.
Here’s one exercise you can try, if you’re struggling to admit that you have past life trauma:
- Step in front of a mirror, and look yourself in the eye.
- Say, “I may have past life sexual trauma that is currently affecting how I show up in relationships and how I relate to my body, sex, and sexuality.”
- Notice what emotions come up for you. Do you feel tightness and pulling or relief?
- Then say, “My experiences and emotions are valid, even if I don’t always understand them.”
- Check in again with your body. What are you noticing and feeling?
- Last, say this, “I am courageous and resilient. With presence, time, and patience, I can heal the root cause of this issue.”
Notice where your body feels tight, or you want to argue with any of the statements. That resistance indicates you have deeper healing and release to do before your body can accept that statement as true.
If you do this exercise over time, you might notice you’re open to acknowledging that you do have past life sexual trauma (instead of just perhaps having the trauma). Be gentle with yourself, and know that acknowledging and validating your trauma is a process.
2. Remember what happened in the past life.
In order to heal from past life sexual trauma, it’s important to remember what happened so that you can re-write the traumatizing narrative. We all communicate through story, and when our stories about the events we experience are disempowering, we continue to hold trauma in our bodies around the original event. When we heal the story or narrative that we created in response to the original traumatic event, we are able to heal and transmute the pain and suffering.
Along my own healing journey, there are three key ways in which I remembered what trauma I experienced in past lives:
- Past life regression
- Somatic processing
- Journaling
I’ll address each of these strategies in turn.
Past Life Regression
Past life regression (PLR) is a form of hypnotism. A PLR therapist or practitioner guides a client into a relaxed state where they access their subconscious mind. At that point, the practitioner asks the client questions about what they’re seeing and experiencing and helps them make sense of the images and stories they’re witnessing.
Past life regression is the most concrete way I remembered my past life trauma. The sessions helped speed up my process of remembering, since they allow one to recall memories and gain clarity in a short time frame, usually in a 1-2 hour session. If you’re interested in this method, learn more about my experiences with past life regression.
Somatic processing
The next method I used to remember my past life trauma was somatic processing. Basically, getting in touch with my body and feeling the emotions and sensations that came up for me as I remembered certain past life events.
Before I saw a past life regression therapist, this was all I knew how to do. It came to me naturally–no one taught me how to do it. For example: I’d focus on the pain in my abdomen when I thought about sex and simply be present with the sensation. As I did this, I’d see visions of an old-fashioned room with a canopied bed and a man who hurt me. This is one powerful way I discovered my past life memories on my own.
If you’re a visual person, this method to heal past-life sexual trauma will probably be intuitive. The body holds our memories, even from past lives. By tuning into the body, we access those memories. If you’re interested in this method I highly recommend reading the book Other Lives, Other Selves by Roger J. Woolger or The Body Keeps the Score by Bessel Van Der Kolk, M.D.
Journaling
In January of 2014 I started my past life journey by, well, journaling. I needed to figure out the dark emotions I had around sex and relationships. Journaling gave me a clearer vision of what was going on in my psyche.
In her book, The Artist’s Way, Julia Cameron presents an exercise where you write out your negative thoughts–or “blurts” as she calls them. She says that most of our negative thoughts don’t come from us and were instead instilled by others around us. Seeing the blurts on the page helps to get them out of your subconscious and into the light, so that they no longer have power over you and you can send them back to the people they came from.
This was what I started doing with my emotions and fears around sex. Writing them down. And it was, as it turned out, an utterly terrifying process. I wouldn’t recommend doing what I did unless you’re truly ready to stir up some mud and you have a coach or therapist to help you process what comes up. I had neither at the time. I was in for a wild ride.
The negative thoughts I had around sex came out in the voice of a domineering male. He said terribly abusive things. “You were made for me, you were made to pleasure me, to gratify me, to fulfill whatever sick desire I may have. I own you. I’ll do whatever I want with you.”
The more I wrote down what this negative voice said, the more I could see that it was consistent. It had a distinct personality. At first, this lead me to believe that I was possessed by a sex demon. I was utterly terrified, so I saw a local psychic.
This brings me to our next important step about how to heal past-life sexual trauma.
3. Find People Who’ll Help You.
The psychic I saw told me that it was not a demon, but in fact fear and trauma from past lives manifesting itself. This shocked me. I had not considered past life trauma as a possibility. I had especially not considered that sexual trauma was affecting me so profoundly. But in hindsight, it made sense. And it terrified me that now the task lay before me to uncover and heal all of it.
Finding people to help me was pivotal. For the first year I had to do nearly all my psychic investigation on my own. Without a guide to help me make sense of it all, I felt incredibly lost.
Over the past seven years I’ve worked with a psychic, an energy healer, a Quantum Healing Hypnosis Technique (QHHT) regression therapist, a Holographic Kinetics practitioner, a therapist (who didn’t understand me and thought I was crazy), another therapist (who does understand me and whom I’ve been seeing for the past 4 years), and Kelly Noel.
Reading books also helped me immensely. I’ve read dozens of books about past life regression, spirituality, and sexual health.
One incredibly valuable book I read at the beginning of my journey was The Invisible Partners. Written by a Jungian analyst, it talks about how the masculine and feminine parts of our souls affect our relationships. The masculine part of the psyche is called the animus and the feminine part is called the anima. This book helped me discover that the “demon” who came up in my journal entries was the male part of myself, the animus, and that I wasn’t crazy for talking to him. (In fact, the book suggests writing out conversations in quotes like you’re talking to a separate entity just like I did.) It also said that the animus can seem like a demon when it’s not being listened to or isn’t integrated properly into the psyche. Because of my trauma, I had rejected my animus, and it had taken on the traits of my abuser.
Having a therapist who understands me has also been pivotal in my healing. I’ve been able to have a safe space to talk about my trauma and how it affects me emotionally, as well as talk about and analyze the dreams/nightmares I’ve had frequently since uncovering my trauma. I also highly recommend having access to talk therapy in between past life regression sessions, as PLR can bring up a lot of stuff that needs further healing and examination.
4. Get Your Trauma Out of Your Body.
From the moment I started remembering my past life trauma, I knew it was stored in my body and that I’d need to get it out somehow. It would be a long and uncomfortable process that would require a lot of patience and presence.
Some great ways to get trauma out of the body are through breath work, yoga, Reiki, somatic experiencing, talk therapy, art therapy, running, weight lifting, and dance, just to name a few.
Being present with my body while learning how to heal my past-life sexual trauma was very difficult for me for a long time. I couldn’t simply be at peace in my body. Just being aware of my body was incredibly uncomfortable. I could barely do yoga–I felt objectified even if I was alone and no one was looking at me. Baths were not fun either. Sitting with myself, my thoughts, and my body alone in the hot water was almost like torture. I still heard the abusive words of my former master in my ears. I felt like a piece of meat. I could hardly stand to look at my naked body or else be riddled with flashbacks. It took me 4 years to start enjoying baths again.
One of the key methods I recommend to get trauma out of the body is breath work. Doing breath work during past life regressions with Kelly Noel has helped shift and release large chunks of my trauma.
Recently, I have also taken up skateboarding and roller skating. I’ve found that doing movement purely for fun has been extremely healing for me. Learning a new skill such as skateboarding helps me focus solely on the joy of movement instead of thinking about what my body looks like to others.
5. Forgive Yourself (And Your Abuser)
This step, while easier said than done, is critical. Forgiveness helps us take our power back and move on with our lives. This admittedly has been the hardest part of my journey. It’s something I’m still working on.
Forgiving Myself
The main thing blocking me from forgiving myself has been shame.
My shame is linked to the part of me that enjoyed my former master’s dark and twisted abuse. The part of me that loved him.
I think all abusive relationships have an element of ambivalence. It’s what makes them so difficult to leave and to move on from emotionally.
Shame thrives in silence. Breaking that silence has been a huge catalyst for my self-forgiveness. I started a blog and shared my story with the world. My healing truly began when I received messages from others who’ve experienced past life sexual trauma. I saw I was not alone. I also saw that I was not alone in loving someone who hurt me.
Forgiving My Abuser
Forgiving my abuser hasn’t been for his sake but for my own inner peace. It’s not something that’s been easy. I still haven’t completely forgiven him. For a long time I didn’t know if I’d ever be able to.
It wasn’t until I did some past life regressions with Kelly Noel in 2020 that I finally untangled more of my trauma and gained clarity and perspective. I saw that he was an incredibly wounded soul in immense pain. His horrendous actions came from this place of deep wounding. That does not excuse what he did, but seeing his pain more clearly helped me to understand why he did it. For the first time, I felt compassion for him. I felt some of my hatred melt away.
This process allowed me to reframe the narrative around what happened, thereby allowing me to forgive him, at least in part.
So, now that you know how to heal past-life sexual trauma…
Just remember that healing past-life sexual trauma is a multi-layered and multi-faceted process. The healing journey asks us to descend into the underworld, to look into our deepest shadows and uncover our deepest fears. Only then can we gain the knowledge we seek. In this case, addressing the root cause of our trauma empowers us to transmute pain and suffering into personal power. At times, it can seem incredibly overwhelming and feel nearly unbearable. It isn’t always easy, and it is the most important journey we will ever take.
You are never truly alone on your journey, as you learn how to heal past-life sexual trauma. There are others who’ve walked this path before you and made it out the other side as stronger versions of themselves. There are healers, teachers, and guides who are ready to help you. There are resources and tools you can utilize to aid in your healing. You are never alone. And the world needs you.
When you learn how to heal your past-life sexual trauma, you heal your relationship with yourself. By healing ourselves, we are able to show up with more love and presence in our relationships with others. This creates a ripple effect in our families, our communities, and beyond. By healing yourself, you are healing the world.
Ready to take the next step on your healing journey? Apply to work 1-on-1 with my coach and mentor, Zeva. They’ve helped me heal lots of past life sexual trauma, and I’m confident you’ll love working with them, too.
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